April has been a bad month for my low carb high fat lifestyle.
We went on a family holiday, Easter happened and I celebrated my birthday. There was a lot of cheating!
I am using a weight tracker app on my iphone and I had a good look at my stats the other day.
In the month of February I had a loss of 3kgs.
In March I lost a further 2kgs
And in April I lost 100g!!!
It was a big wake up call for me. I really don’t want to brush off this goal because its really important to me. I have a habit of giving up and making excuses around the six week mark and my stats show that I will be going in that direction if I don’t get my A into G! Ultimately I know that I will start to put all of the weight back on. I will end up frustrated with myself and then I will start again and we will continue on that cycle until the end of my time here on this earth.
I have been back on track this week and my weight has started to descend already. I have realized and confirmed in my mind that this weight loss goal has a lot to do with my state of mind. Around the 5kg mark I dropped a size and was able to fit into my size 14 jeans with comfort. That made me feel pretty good about myself and subconsciously I know I was thinking.
“Hey, this is cool!”
Unfortunately I was also thinking, “Well done, take a break, you have done well enough for now”
I have been FAT for a decade and unfortunately I have developed a FAT way of thinking too! So its actually difficult for me to imagine myself slim and get comfortable with that. I know that sounds sooooo stupid, but I guess I have failed so many times I really have to work at believing I can do this. I have to push myself harder than I have before and train my brain to believe that I can do it.
The best thing about this way of eating is that I love the food. I love the food that I can eat on the diet more than the food I am allowed to eat off the diet! I just need to make sure that I am well prepared, because if I am not, I will slip.
I have also realized that thinking too much about a 20kg weight loss goal may be too daunting for me. I just can’t get that into my head. Obviously I would be thrilled, but I am not at the point of imagining it. I need to rewire my FAT thinking brain. So I reckon I need to focus on a mini goal first…………..65kg! That is an overall loss of 13kgs and I have seven more kilos to loose before I get there.
Honestly, this is harder than I imagined it to be and a large part of it is psychological.
I have just gotta learn to think thin! Think thin! Think thin!
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